Wow. That's abuse plain and simple. You do not need that. First he emotionally abused you by not letting you have a life of your own and then accusing you of cheating on him, yet having the gall to do it himself. And then he physically abuses you. You hitting him was not right, but it did not give him the right to him you. . . EVER! Don't go back to him. You desever better and you don't want to be teaching your daughter that. I'm sorry it's so hard. It's going to hurt for awhile. It hard when you nothing differant. Just hang in there and it will get easier with time!

i think you need to take your daughter and get away from him, i also think it will hurt for a while but eventually you will move on and be happy you left him. i dont think you or your daughter are safe near him. good luck and let us know what happens. be safe.take care feel free to PM me if you need to talk

I totally agree with the pps. You need to stay away from him. It's good that you have your mother to stay with. Now you have a chance to put your life back together. I know it hurts, believe me. But it will work out. You will get over this and over him and you will be soooo much stronger and happier. He doesn't deserve to be with you. You deserve soo much more than he has to offer. No one has the right to abuse you or treat you however they feel like it. Keep your head up mama! And when you're feeling weak and are thinking about calling him, think about all the things he's done to you and the reasons why you left!!
Good Luck Mama, you will get through this.

Thanks guys, I appreciate the support. I felt better just getting it off my chest too. Its just when your with someone for so long it gets comfortable, and when your not with them, its so uncomfortable. I want to talk to him so badly but 1) i dont even know what i would say and 2) i've tried and he just hangs up on me. What really bothers me (and i know this is my own jealousy issue) is the fact that he can just go off and go be with a new girl and what if he treats her good? How is that fair when I put so much effort into our relationship. Ugggh it sucks. The whole thing actually makes me feel sick to my stomach, and i have really really weird dreams at night, by morning I dont even feel rested I just feel so emotionally drained, its hard to even do daily tasks. Can anyone relate?? I just need some tips on how to move past this because like I said, I've never been through a breakup before.

Yes, many of us can relate and have been through this. He will not change. He will treat the next girlfriend like shit too, even if outwardly things seem okay. You are WAY better off without him. Don't go back, no matter what he says or tries to promise.

It sounds like you know this is an abusive relationship.
I want you to know that he is manipulating you. He's saying you broke his heart. He knows damn well that isn't so. He just wants you to feel bad for the relationship ending, when really it is his fault. He is weaseling out of and kind of responsibility for the relationship ending.
He totally belittle and demeans you. Any man who truly loves and respects you would never ever call you a slut or a whore. Those terms are totally anti-woman. It's what misogynistic people use to hold woman back, to make woman feel bad and low and it gives us sexual dysfunction. He wants you to feel ugly and unworthy so that he can keep you under his thumb for whenever he feels like it. You must know this, or be realizing it. So why let him have all that power over you. You can get past him, and really really should. He is not good for you or your daughter.
He's totally controlling. If somebody is making you ask if you can do things, like go out, is controlling who you can and can't talk to, is extremely jealous, or is controlling your money, then they are abusing you.
If your daughter grows up witnessing her mother constantly succumbing to abusive men, she has a way higher chance of herself ending up in abusing relationships. Getting out of this is a very healthy choice for you, but also for your daughters upbringing and self esteem.
Also, you probably don't want your daughter growing up in a household with drug users. This guys drug use makes the situation that much more dangerous.
When you start to feel lonely, just remember what I am telling you here, domestic violence always gets worse. Every incident is going to be worse than the last. People die from domestic violence all the time, which is totally sad and completely preventable. You want to be around to see your daughter grow up, so please keep yourself safe.
I would also encourage you to get in touch with a womans survivors group. Contact the domestic abuse shelter in your area and ask for some counseling and support group information.
best of luck with everything. Please keep in touch in the board here. It is really a great place for support.

Thanks Jube, loved your reply. I completely agree with you about how those names are demeaning... I don't understand why he thinks other girls are so much better than me? When I was with him, he would call me all these names and make me feel so poorly, yet if we went for a drive in town he would almost always demand we go down seymour street which is full of ""high-class"" hookers. He loves porn and strippers too, then he calls me a whore and gets angry? It just doesn't make sense. There are so many things that just don't make sense to me about what went on in this relationship.

Can someone put a trigger on this for anti-female language?
And also, this is a sex worker friendly site, robin_amber, so please don't use words with anti-sex worker undertone, like in your last comment.
But, I agree with pp. Your relationship was very abusive and you should definately stay away from him and keep your daughter away from him. I understand how hard it will be, as you have been with him so long, but it will be much better in the long run. Good luck and I hope you feel better.

I'm not going to call you out again but here is the link to the sex-positive sticky.
http://www.girl-mom.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=15017
You are so much better without this guy. I left my bd and it was the best decision I ever made. I spent a long time feeling lonely and sad because I thought no one would want to be with me, but then i realized people did!
Check out the why people want to date single moms thread. My bd was bad news and it seems like yours is too.
Know that abuse is a cycle. He will go through nice phases trying to get you back under his control but then he will abuse you again. Leave now.

Oops my apologies if I had offended anyone. The point I was trying to make wasn't that sex workers are bad or anything like that, just that he's a hypocrite for saying those things to me in a negative way, and then actually being very attracted/kind of obsessed with women who work in the sex trade.

You know, if he gets a new girlfriend, you might feel jealous thinking that he treats her better than he treated you, but that's probably not the case. I feel really sorry for my BDs new wife. At first, he played it off like he's changed and was now a decent guy, but it soon became obvious that he's still abusive.
Men who are abusive rarely ever change. Sometimes, at the beginning of a relationship, they make sure they look like the perfect boyfriend to everyone around, and are only abusive in private, or start out in really small ways.
And as for why he thinks other girls are so much better than you, that's what abusers do, they try to make you think that you are worthless and they would rather be with anybody but you. That's not something that you should internalize, it would be the same no matter who he was with.
You really need to stay away from him, for your sake and your daughter's. He's not worth your time.
I don't know if you're still local, but if you are and you ever want someone IRL to hang out with, talk on the phone, help you put bags of flaming poo on his porch, let me know (ok, well maybe not the last one, but it's a funny thought).

I'm in Victoria, where bouts are you???
UPDATE>> i feel alot better!! This is going to sound really mean and harsh but at least I feel better. About 4 months ago I was searching his computer for evidence that he had cheated ( i know..not cool.. but it needed to be done ) i went to facebook.com and there was a saved email address in the login. Anyways I assumed that it was an email address of his so that I wouldn't know he was using facebook (because of course i wasnt allowed). Anyways I added this girl to my facebook today and it just so happens that she has that same email address, which means that she was at his house on his computer. And this is why I feel better, he always told me he could do waaaaay better than me (looks wise) telling me he could be with a really hot sexy blonde, but this girl for one looks like shes 15 and, not that i am full of myself or anything, i think i look a lot better than her!! So i'm actually feeling good right now, if that makes sense. Again, i'm not trying to sound mean or shallow here.

sorry im just a bit of an emotional wreck, i will try to keep those thoughts to myself.

I am so happy to hear that you left him. That spells abuse all over it. You are much better off without him. And you will start to see it- hopefully soon. Getting out of a relationship is always hard- even leaving abusive relationships. You are a very strong mama, and have a wonderful baby to take care of. Keep your head up.
Also, Do you have much support from family/friends? I noticed you said that you have been very antisocial which is not at all uncommon with abusive relationships. Just wanted to let you know that I have been there before too, and if you ever need anything, We are all here for you.